Lindell's 30 Day's Of Practice - Day 18/30

Day 18. Wow! 

I just realised I didn't do my weekly evaluation. 
This is a moment on choice for me. I can be really annoyed at myself or just carry on and make a decision on the weekly evaluation for next week. 
I do want to do the weekly eval. I feel like I did do it but in a daily check in. 
But it's not like the first week so inconsistent. hmmmm. 
Moving forward I DO want to do the weekly eval to see if there's any helpful observations in there. I'll do it on a Monday. 

It's 5.30am and I am feeling sleep tired. Hubby and I stayed up til 12 laying carpet tiles in the office. 
Tired but IT'S FINISHED!!! Ready to be moved into. 
I'm so excited because this will free up a room in our house where we'll have all the kids toys and desks. And when we have a room for toys and their drawing stuff the rest of the house transforms to tidy. 
Plus I'll be more comfortable, I wont' have to move all my stuff into my bedroom for daytime calls. 

Weight - 800g which was a surprise to me. I'm feeling a little full still from dinner last night. I can never pick what my weight will be on the scales. Feeling 'light' the scales don't move, feeling 'heavy' the scales move, feeling 'light' the scales go up, feeling 'heavy' the scales stay the same. 
Weight is so weird.
One great thing about it is that I don't have to feel hungry to lose weight. That hungry feeling isn't 'weight loss'. There was a time when I thought it was. SO glad I know that. 

I moved into my new office this morning. 
Then I got hungry. 
I stood in the fridge looking for food to jump out and tell me to eat it, then I realised what I was doing. I didn't have a plan and was looking for food to call me. I didn't even really fancy anything in particular. 
SO I decided to have a glass of water and come sit down to plan before I eat. 
So I went to my old office and realised I had to come out to the new office which is in the yard. It seemed like a good idea at the time of planning but now it's not as easy for me to jump on my computer. Probably a good thing because some nights I jump on and before I know it it's late and I've been working for a few hours. 
Anyway, I've made the effort to come out here and type this up so my plan is:
2 teas, 3 coffees, chicken and cumber for lunch (it's all I can see in the fridge), yoghurt and mango if I want, dinner needs to be fish and salad. The family haven't had enough fish lately. 
I want to plan in some meatless meals but just haven't had the chance to find a recipe and get the ingredients. I need to put a shopping order in today. Meant to do it yesterday and didn't, meant I had to race up to the supermarket for milk and bread for the kids lunch in the 15 minutes I had spare this morning. 

Oh, forgot to put a chocolate on my plan. Add that on and I think my plan is ready. 

Power thoughts today:
I'm feeling fine fine fine (signing that one, no idea if it's a real song or if I made it up but I'm singing it). 
Breath, breath, breath. Breathing feels so good. 
I am the example I want to be. 
I am showing up how I want to show up.
I am being who I want to be. 

Lunch was chicken and cucumber. 
This afternoon I had mango and yoghurt with some pistachio nuts on top. 
Just working out dinner. I'm a bit stressed. Will take some breaths. 
My house is a mess, got summer soccer and the family needs feeding. I'm a bit fed up with feeding people. And I've already used the 2 take out meals we fall back on during busy weeks. Umf. 
My head is tired too. 

Ok, so we'll have tinned salmon and frozen spinach phyllo pie with a side of salad. This is one of those 'could be amazing or could be terrible'. Only time will tell ha ha. 

Gosh, an afternoon like today would have (in the past) had me turning on 'Jazz in the Background', pouring a glass of wine and cooking dinner. I'd have had 2 glasses before dinner and a 3rd with dinner. Maybe followed by a 4th after dinner with as much chocolate as I wish. 

I feel uncomfortable this afternoon. I feel annoyed, tired and bothered. 
My brain says I deserve time out. I deserve to relax and not push forward doing what I planned to do. 
To drink wine and chill. 
I'm not going to though. This is a very good opportunity for me to feel annoyed and bothered and keep going with my commitments. I can feel annoyed and not eat it (although right now eating it sounds like the only answer). I can breath and press on my wrist and breath and rebalance the activation in my brains hemispheres. 
Wow, that helps a lot. I felt a rapid fast speed movement in my chest. Tension up into my neck. My arms were tingly and ready for action (putting food in my mouth). Wooow. 

I will self coach on the thought "those kids are so annoying" (seriously I'm sure we all have these thoughts sometimes). 
I know the more I think that the more annoyed I feel. 

New thought "those kids are being kids, I'm not needed and their noise doesn't need to land on me". 
I'll work on that one ha ha. 

Off to breath, press on my wrist, cook dinner and clean. 

Ok, great evening. I cooked 2 pie things, cleaned the living areas and breathed. 
Dinner was pie and green salad (I always have dressing on my salad, I make my own, whatever I feel like it, this one was mayo, olive oil, red wine vinegar, lemon juice, dijon mustard, salt.... I think that was it). 
I had 1 chocolate after dinner and have been busy helping hubby move his stuff into his new office. 

Today was about an 8 out of 10. I added pistachio's to my yoghurt and mango. Then I had a few extra pistachios on the side. 
Then when I was cooking dinner I toasted coconut flakes and had some. 
I didn't have much off plan but a little bit and I wasn't hungry at all. Even for dinner I wasn't very hungry and could have had less. 
No judgement just evaluation. Next time I want to check in with myself. Actually that's not my desire because I did check in with myself. It was like "am I really hungry? nope. Do I really need to eat dinner? nope, but I am". I'm glad I stopped at one piece of pie. 

I'll have a cup of dandelion tea and get an early night tonight. I feel amazing and I need some extra sleep. 
It's going to be a weekend full of work around the house and I'm going to need to be well rested.